Lots of words little thought

quick and to the point?

Never...
Hilly got me thinking. So I will write way more than she ever wanted to read as a response to her question and I will try to figure out what I really think.

Maybe the good thing about cravings and the WLS is that you CAN have what you are craving but just a bite or so???

This is so true. I have given in to some of my cravings and because of WLS I can eat one fun sized candy bar even when there is a whole mountain more. I literally lacked the ability to "just have one" I could also even just have a little bit of pizza. Like part of a piece. I was more of a 3-4 piece eater and I would keep eating until I felt sick. Well I still do that. The only thing is I get sick a whole lot faster. Or I stop quicker because I know when the sick factor will kick in.

That is how the tool works even when I don't work it.

So even if I don't treat my body well I won't gain (at least not yet)

Before, if I fully gave into a craving it would result in a 3 lbs gain that took 3 weeks to work off and then I would beat myself into self hate and submission to be fat forever.

I think I start to worry about all the feelings and thoughts associated with giving into my cravings. I have so much negative tied into that. I think mostly because I haven't had an off switch in the past so I get a kind of "letting the fload gate go" feeling. Then also I know that most people don't start "testing the waters" this early out. The majority of people live behind the fear for a lot longer than I have. That starts to worry me. My head start to spin.

"Should I be the perfect patient for longer than this?"
"There are people that didn't lay a hand on sugar or fats for over a year out"
"Is this just a sign that I won't be able to control myself later?"
"Am I indulging in a little splurge or am I trying to work around my pouch"

So this is kinda where my head was when I wrote yesterday. I feel like I NEED to make sure that I am getting the habits of taking care of myself and treating myself in order and in place now. That way I am working it to my BEST advantage. Doing this will get me ALL the way to goal. I can be healthy AND fit. I don't have a want to be skinny. I think I could get skinny with WLS eating like crap and just letting the pouch be the only thing that dictated my success*.
I have read about people who do that. I don't want to be one of those people and who knows what I would end up like when it was all said and done. I could end up even higher than when I started.
If I work my program and follow my rules I won't have room or not much at all for the cravings and I probably won't have as many cravings.

One huge factor of why I had WLS was the "can't just have one" and then also it has given me faith in myself. Seeing the small success really builds on itself. It gives me the momentum to really believe and trust myself. When I was feeling hopeless, it gave me hope.

Hmm, I think I got all my thoughts on this one out. Thanks for triggering the brain dump Hilly :D


*I would compare that to people who do WW and live of processed 1 and 2 pts foods the whole time. Yeah you can get to goal eating FF chips and sf gummy bears but where will that leave you. If you work your program and get in your milks, healthy fats, fruits and veggies you don't have much room (points) left over for the other stuff.

posted by Mamato2boys @ 10:15 AM