Lots of words little thought

2 weeks!!

How the hell did that happen??

Well talk about getting wrapped up in the everyday of life and not taking care of the inside stuff. Actually I have been a little slack on the outside stuff as well. I think it may be two weeks since I last worked out as well. I mean unless you count cleaning and scrubbing the house for my Christmas party a workout...

I am doing good overall. Things are starting to go a bit smoother with the business stuff. The contractor says that they are still on schedule to be done building on January 29 and then that week we would do training and final touches and have our grand opening on Feb 7th!! Talk about exciting, overwhelming.

I finally got IN to see my therapist yesterday. Talking in person is SO much better than doing it over the phone. But over the phone is better than nothing. I so very much need her help working on the inside stuff. I didn't get my insides re-routed to not work on the insides and still end up back were I was because I know if I wasn't working on this "stuff" I would go back to the old me in a flash, even with the surgery. My big lightbulb moment was in the thought that when I see pictures of mhyself at this weight I actually feel like I look like me. The range that I am in now is a familiar one still. I look like the me that I am portraying to the world and the one captured in pictures is the real me. We didn't talk about what happens when I shrink past this stage and start not feeling like I look like "me" anymore but it was good to really get my brain around that. I can look at pics at my highest weight and I can see glimmers of my light but I can't see the me that I am inside my head. I think Les sees that too. He is getting the wife he married back. Yes, body wise, but more than that my inner self shows through when I am not consumed with all things food. This is the gift that surgery has given me.

Pics of my boys at Christmas to be posted here**** when I get upstairs to download them :)

posted by Mamato2boys @ 7:40 AM