Lots of words little thought

procrastination is a beautiful thing...

Well I have two weeks left of work. I have gotten quite a few emails with official business that needs to be taken care of before my resignation date. I think each time I get one or any time any ones mentions it, it knocks me on my ass. So what have I done today? Absolutely nothing!

I can’t focus. I can’t find any motivation. I think it has more to do with just being dumbstruck more than anything else.
I was nutts to do a whole life transition like this being this new post-op but things happen for a reason and I really believe that good things are about to happen. I also have a real feeling that I am about to have the hardest couple of months of my life ahead of me here shortly and I think I am getting kind of close to being frozen with fear. I have started grazing and I know it is just my coping skills trying to re-root themselves.

I can’t continue to let that happen. It worries me SO heavily that I am having these problems already barely 6 months out. Don’t most people make it most of their first year before they start having these issues. Why do I always have to be the anomaly? I am thinking that the only way to combat this is to give myself lists and tasks of things that need to be accomplished otherwise I will be like I have the past few days and it hasn’t been good. Any time that wasn’t schedule was just spent navel gazing online or staring blankly at the television. NOT what I need to be doing. It is my equivalent of sticking my head in the sand.

So for starters as soon as I get home I am going to do start some laundry. Make a dreaded phone call to put in a $6000 order. Then after the boys get home I am going to do my FIRM total body sculpting video. There is nothing like the feeling of incredibly sore muscles to give you a feeling of accomplishing something.
We interviewed about half of our candidates and will do the remaining 4 or so interviews on Saturday. After that hopefully we will have all the gaps in the schedule filled and can focus on training schedules and small wares purchases. You would think shopping would be fun but in the dollar amounts that we have to spend it is anything but.

posted by Mamato2boys @ 11:00 AM